Sunday, August 10, 2008

主, 求你来恢复....

最近我的灵真的很累...累得我停下了脚步,看回头看失去的比收得更多...我真的需要圣灵来带领我前面的道路〉。不管是我的时期或是爱情,天父我懂你已经非常了解...求你帮助我。我不能了!

Sunday, June 1, 2008

my life must go on,,

May was the laziest month for me...i've been stumbling around with nothing to do, just sleep and than wake, sleep and than wake, totally meaningless.. i now suffering a problem is how do i find $400 to paid my rent?it was a struggling for me? next time i must write it down after paying the rent..if not you confuess..i am so out of of this earth, i don't like what i'm doing now, oh lord, if you are God please give the Job that recomended by aunt Deborah, i think it challenging and it can save money..and can disciplin up my life, i don't want to live any non meaningful life..i want to be sucessful, i think i must started to proclaim that this job is MINE!! i need to be a dreamer, look back i never done anything that can make my parents proud, i'm nothing! i can't do anything that can make my self happy and my parents proud.

Oh Lord, do you know, what i am struggling and what i'm confussing?
i something that can make my life happy! i want my life to be meaningful! i pray Lord in three day from now, if you don't tell me about my dream and the roud you have plan for me i'm gonna forget you oh Lord! i really can't effort the rent i needed a place to stay oh Lord..you always tell me not to be scared, Lord i belive in you Lord, please tell me what you should tell me! i can' t stand this kind of life Lord, please bring revelation to me! i know that Lord, you can give me what you have already plan for me! i believe in you oh father!

thanks.. in jesus name ..Amen

Tuesday, May 27, 2008

人生的过程....

今天已经是五月的尾声了,六月份将要抵达我的世界了,非常的害怕再次面对这个大的城市。小小的我非常害怕,我很努力的去改变自己,试着去把就事情忘记,这样胆小的我给了我非常大的压力,我最近因这事情失眠,上帝啊,无论如何我都知道你会支持我到最后。我的梦想你是不会小看的,我心里的事情你是懂得,上帝,我把这一些事情交托在你的手中,这两个月我一定要赚到钱去印尼,上帝啊,飞机票都已经订好了,你的旨意的话,就给我飞吧,让我再一次为你而活。我的要求只有这个,最后一秒钟我是不会退后,上帝啊,给我一个目标好不好?我不想做“没有梦的人”让我这次寻到我的梦想和你的爱吧.....我懂你是不会放弃我的!我爱你!

人生的过程...

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

Prayer for Si Chuan

Today, i know that Lord had search for me to work with him..that is to pray for my mother nation CHINA...i've been listening news from the the television for about the whole day... and i don't have the feeling of want to pray for si chuan....cause it don't bother my life...but it was wrong, God been calling me to pray for them.. i'm very shameful that i didn't take part as God child to pray for my mother nation...it was a shame ...but i know God have forgive me for din paid a serious manner to this case...when i switch on the laptop...the first thing i saw is "pray for si chuan" i know it was not a curiousity...it must be a message from God trought Bro Terence...Yes Lord, your kingdom is more important than the situation i've facing...your kingdom is more important then the situation that been facing then my family..your kingdom is more important then the world...Lord, i'm sorry for paying respect more to the world then your kingdom...Lord, i'm sorry...Lord, i know when i search your kingdom first everything will come to me....i should paid more respect to your kingdom, to your nation....forgive me oh Lord, thanks for the things that you've done to me... i know is to make me growth, lord continue to open up my eye to let me growth in spirit...lord...restore my life ... i want a new life...lord a new life...tell me the purpose of my life lord...the sitting here, sleeping....i want to become a warrior that know how to use your weapon...lord...i don't want to lose to satan....i want my name to be on your book lord....lord save me from the beggining...i want a new life....a joyful life...thanks Lord...

Prayer for Si chuan
Dear Lord Jesus,
Thanks You lord for what had happen to china si chuan, Lord, i prayed that lord you continue to safe the people there and Lord i know revival will come to china lord, lord i prayed lord you bring up more warrior to win more soul in china....lord you will be done on earth and on heaven ....lord, i know you love china very much, lord i prayed that lord you send the witness to send your good news...lord, thanks for your love for china....in jesus name i pray ...AMEN