主， 求你来恢复....

最近我的灵真的很累...累得我停下了脚步，看回头看失去的比收得更多...我真的需要圣灵来带领我前面的道路〉。不管是我的时期或是爱情,天父我懂你已经非常了解...求你帮助我。我不能了！

A4j ----aWakening for JESUS

my life must go on,,

May was the laziest month for me...i've been stumbling around with nothing to do, just sleep and than wake, sleep and than wake, totally meaningless.. i now suffering a problem is how do i find $400 to paid my rent?it was a struggling for me? next time i must write it down after paying the rent..if not you confuess..i am so out of of this earth, i don't like what i'm doing now, oh lord, if you are God please give the Job that recomended by aunt Deborah, i think it challenging and it can save money..and can disciplin up my life, i don't want to live any non meaningful life..i want to be sucessful, i think i must started to proclaim that this job is MINE!! i need to be a dreamer, look back i never done anything that can make my parents proud, i'm nothing! i can't do anything that can make my self happy and my parents proud.

Oh Lord, do you know, what i am struggling and what i'm confussing?
i something that can make my life happy! i want my life to be meaningful! i pray Lord in three day from now, if you don't tell me about my dream and the roud you have plan for me i'm gonna forget you oh Lord! i really can't effort the rent i needed a place to stay oh Lord..you always tell me not to be scared, Lord i belive in you Lord, please tell me what you should tell me! i can' t stand this kind of life Lord, please bring revelation to me! i know that Lord, you can give me what you have already plan for me! i believe in you oh father!

thanks.. in jesus name ..Amen

人生的过程....

今天已经是五月的尾声了，六月份将要抵达我的世界了，非常的害怕再次面对这个大的城市。小小的我非常害怕，我很努力的去改变自己，试着去把就事情忘记，这样胆小的我给了我非常大的压力，我最近因这事情失眠，上帝啊，无论如何我都知道你会支持我到最后。我的梦想你是不会小看的，我心里的事情你是懂得，上帝，我把这一些事情交托在你的手中，这两个月我一定要赚到钱去印尼，上帝啊，飞机票都已经订好了，你的旨意的话，就给我飞吧，让我再一次为你而活。我的要求只有这个，最后一秒钟我是不会退后，上帝啊，给我一个目标好不好？我不想做“没有梦的人”让我这次寻到我的梦想和你的爱吧.....我懂你是不会放弃我的！我爱你！

人生的过程...

Prayer for Si Chuan

Today, i know that Lord had search for me to work with him..that is to pray for my mother nation CHINA...i've been listening news from the the television for about the whole day... and i don't have the feeling of want to pray for si chuan....cause it don't bother my life...but it was wrong, God been calling me to pray for them.. i'm very shameful that i didn't take part as God child to pray for my mother nation...it was a shame ...but i know God have forgive me for din paid a serious manner to this case...when i switch on the laptop...the first thing i saw is "pray for si chuan" i know it was not a curiousity...it must be a message from God trought Bro Terence...Yes Lord, your kingdom is more important than the situation i've facing...your kingdom is more important then the situation that been facing then my family..your kingdom is more important then the world...Lord, i'm sorry for paying respect more to the world then your kingdom...Lord, i'm sorry...Lord, i know when i search your kingdom first everything will come to me....i should paid more respect to your kingdom, to your nation....forgive me oh Lord, thanks for the things that you've done to me... i know is to make me growth, lord continue to open up my eye to let me growth in spirit...lord...restore my life ... i want a new life...lord a new life...tell me the purpose of my life lord...the sitting here, sleeping....i want to become a warrior that know how to use your weapon...lord...i don't want to lose to satan....i want my name to be on your book lord....lord save me from the beggining...i want a new life....a joyful life...thanks Lord...

Prayer for Si chuan
Dear Lord Jesus,
Thanks You lord for what had happen to china si chuan, Lord, i prayed that lord you continue to safe the people there and Lord i know revival will come to china lord, lord i prayed lord you bring up more warrior to win more soul in china....lord you will be done on earth and on heaven ....lord, i know you love china very much, lord i prayed that lord you send the witness to send your good news...lord, thanks for your love for china....in jesus name i pray ...AMEN

Jeremiah 33:3 "call to me and i will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know."

At last i go back to God presence! i've been run away from God for 1 month, i thanks God that he always as a table behind me to carry me, to protect me, to hug me, to love me...today, pastor Eric, saw a vision that he saw a table behind me and there was a cross there, at first i don't understand about it. Ya, this recently i am frustrating something that i can't let go...i'm hurt to see that my housemate hate me, i'm hurt that my boss saw me by reading the horoscope ,i'm hurt that i can't go in to the fellowship with my church members, i'm hurt that i get snatch, i'm hurt that my parents don't understand me, i'm too depress...yesterday,i was crying alone,i don't know why i just cry cry and cry and blame myselve that i'm an idiot...all the situation that happen kept cross over my mind...i want to cried to the holy spirit but, i felt useless, i felt myselve guilty. "Actually experincing all this things is not bad just part of our life" said my friend Justin. Ya, is true, but if you find yourselve you can't go throught it what you gonna do? it was a question i always put inside my heart, but after what God had told me in Jeremiah 33:3 God is always there, he always want to listen to what you said! i honestly said that, the people who most understand me in my life is not my familys, my friends, my dog,=..= hehe...is GOD!!Jesus know me more than anyone else in the world. God will change your sadness to happiness!!only God!!!AMEN

好安静的夜晚..

一个只有自己的空间,
安静的听着"不能分手的分手",
歌词跟曲子配在一起很伤感,
伤感的让我回想起喜欢'他'的日子,
虽然只是一时单纯的暗恋,
可是这种感觉和热情依然存留着在我的脑海里.
记得有一次正走着走着背着沉重的疲劳上班时,
忽然在那转角看见一位穿着黄色衣,戴着一顶鸭帽,
笑眯眯的问我说:"去哪啊?"
我回答他后,他说了一句他常说的"加油!".
当时疲累的身体加上心跳的节奏竟然变成了一个力量...
好强的力量,使我疲惫的一天换起了快乐.
好怀念...
好怀念的怀念...

上帝我真的好喜欢他,但为什么'他'却要选择逃避呢?
我好悲哀...我的心就像这首歌一样在呼求"不能分手的分手!"
好难遗忘,好难不想看他...

RESTORATION OF PHYSICAL BODY TOO....

是什么在影响女性食欲[点击放大]
女性的食欲由谁决定 来源：Getty Images Mike Kemp
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　　与男性相比，女性的肥胖更容易受到激素的影响，以下的两种激素，是女性肥胖中最普遍的影响因素。

　　皮质醇

皮质醇是一种激素，是由肾上腺皮质分泌的。皮质醇分泌过多的来源就是压力。长期的心情焦虑或工作繁忙，都可能导致皮质醇过多的分泌。从统计上来看，女性更容易敏感的遭受到皮质醇的影响。皮质醇分泌过多还可能引起糖、蛋白质、电解质、脂肪等物质的代谢，继而变得肥胖。日渐快节奏的压力型生活，总是让我们感觉肚子很饿，特别想吃东西，但增加的如此多的量却并不能因为工作的繁忙而完全消耗掉。正因为如此，置身压力下的女性才更容易肥胖。

为了预防皮质醇分泌过多的反应，我们应当学会花少量的时间释放压力。工作的间歇活动活动四肢、多做深呼吸。保证每周2~3次以上的运动，包括临睡前的洗浴按摩等等。减轻压力的方法很多，总之是希望想保持身材的人能够有意识的去保持良好的心情状态，千万别以为越耗费精力就越能减肥。

　　雌激素

　　雌激素对女人一生的影响都特别大。它每个月在女人体内复杂的变化，引起了一系列的连带反映。它保护了女人的健康，而一但分泌的紊乱也会让人马上陷入困惑。雌激素分泌的异常，也是引起女性肥胖的一大原因。生理期之前，大多数女孩都会有增加食欲的反应。而庆幸的是，如果能做到适时的控制，身体还能在生理期过后恢复到原有的状态。

　　生理期之前的食欲亢进期不要任由自己大吃特吃，毕竟肥胖都是吃出来的。要多运动，运动是调节内分泌，减缓经期前不良症状的好方法。尽量少吃盐和垃圾食品，多吃清淡的食物。但不要节食，也不要刻意的少吃。这样控制好的话，生理期的轻微体重增重只会是水分，每当生理期过后，多余的水分排出体外，你还是会恢复原来的体重。

从女性的两种激素分泌与肥胖的微妙关系来看，健康与瘦身是个很复杂的综合成果。关注瘦身，就是关注一系列导致肥胖发生的细微变化，通过保持良好的内分泌，来有效控制体重。

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the 3rd day of MAY!!

Today was a great day-RAINY DAY!!!my favorite..specially stay in the house gor 24 hour...haha>.<
While today my mummy when to PJ (GA611) my church for a big service "rev.guo"...i hope she come back with a comforted heart and hope she get the "battery" home. My mum have a leg disease that cause her in pain for the pass year...i remember in the midnight, my mum will woke up from bed because of the pain she had suffering, and to stop disturbing my dad from his sleep, she will went to the living room to sleep on the sofa that was not comfort to lay for the middle age woman...Honestly i never treat my mummy with a warm heart, if she din tell me to clean the floor, i won't do it, whenever she want me to do it, i will do it in a forecefully emotion. i felt sorry for din help up my mum for the pass year..i always gave her many problem, now think back she start to turn old...i always think that she's rejecting me, she never said ..."you're clever", "you are good". But i miss out also that they(my parents) they also growth out from a chinese family that my grandny treats them with no "HUG"+"love"...i really understand now that "THEY NEVER FELT THAT LOVE BEFORE" so why i need to aspect more from them? I thanks GOD that i met him, he show me the "father love" that i never felt before across my life, so must start first then God will open way to show love in the family...thanks God, i'll continue to prayed that Jesus, open way for my father, to know what is abba father love, oh lord thanks you! and i prayed that there are restoration in my family!!Lord, you'll do your way>>>>AMEN

The 2nd of MAY

Today when i woke up already 2 in the afternoon...the first thing i think when i get up was "what time izit now?" everyday the same things go pass.
Looking back to April, what a bad month for me in my physical and spiritual. Things seem like not going on my way, i always think there won't be anything bad going to happen for me, but seem like is going through. On the 13th of April, i get snatch by theft!!! I guess many friends want to know about it, while this it how it happen.
Everynight after work i will take U88 bus to go back to sec14, but the bus sure will not stop where i live-..i need to work for about 10 to 15 minute road, during the 3 month i need to walk home from the bus stop, for the first week sure i'm scared but i this is what i should to in my eveyday life i can't cancel from it..By doing it everyday i already suit it into my life specially in the city..and i love to walk is a good exercise to build up my body. i remember that day i work until very tired, so i walk slowly and listen to my favorite music, i know it was a "don't" action in the city, but i done it almost everyday...walk until a small road outside old jaya parking place...suddenly, without realizing, a hand from behind grabbing my arm, that time my mind become blank all white for about 5 seconds, than started to feel the gravity of people pulling my big yellow bag,oops, i wake up from the blank and realise that i get snatch by theft!! oh i was so shock. Then, i don't care what i tried to pulled back my big yellow bag, first i didn't think of my life but my belonging in the bag, my phone, my wallet, my magazine, my books, and my expensive make up bag! thanks God i didn't bring my collection-..i pulled with all my energy, then the theft kept saying "let go! if not i cut you"..i said no!!!no!!! no!!!then i screm for help, but the theft was very strong and he use his knife and cut my left arm, a small cut, i scared of getting hurt so i let go, then he walk forward to his friend and drive off in a motorcycle..a motorcycle pass by and saw what have happen run to catch but i know is over,i can't do anything with it, so i run home for help... thats is what happen..a long story..then i wait for check out at the hospital for 5 hours!!!this is what i hate, but i get to evangelis to jun friends YK, i gave him God prophetic word and urge him to know Jesus. this is what happen that day...the day that was unforgetable!!!

The 2nd of MAY

WHAT EDISON CHEN BELIEVE IN JESUS???

HUH?Do you guys believe it?My Jesus have save edison chen?...oh what a good news for us christian,surely everything is in God hand...thanks for the Holy spirit who touch his heart...from this cases i learn one things is that human have sin...no one can perish all the sin..except for the one that really care for us and will die for us on the cross.....no one, no God can ever help you when you really facing a big giant, except JESUS!!edison chen was a good example that how God can restore a person form such a bad situation...you see Jesus din try to condemn him, comparing the outside world which religion can really save him from drowning?nobody can answer this i guess...really only HIM who can do the restoration...the blood of Jesus can swept away all our sin, our burden, our hurt, our sickness...in HIM we can find THE WAY
Dear Lord Jesus,
Your precious cross have give us the life, your blood restore us from the dept of sin...Your mercy overflow like the river, your love flow abundenly to this generation...
oh abba father...
thanks for saving Edison chen life from the bad situation he has gone through...
lord continue to lead his way to help everyone that are in darkness, use him until you come...
help him to walk straight in your path...lead his family and friend to the everlasting life....
father, thanks ...
i prayed in jesus name ,AMEN

2008年4月30号的一天

今天，一开眼睛第一个看到的东西是什么？>>>>>>>>>>>>>>是蓝蓝高高的大蓝天.....